oh...it was fun...

last nite was fun....though i had this stupid stomach cramps..

he sent me to polyclinic in the morning..doctor says i had this urine infection...stupid..

den went to pasir ris park and eat..he really make me laugh..though it's lame but he still manage to make me giggle..and my stomach really hurts when i laugh..it feels awful..serious.

den we head back to tamp as i had my o level..chemistry paper..difficult..but manage to do..

later tat nite..meet nora..

really had fun talking with her..she xplain me some geography topics on development..

todae...geo paper was quite ok..nit tat hard not tat easy either..

he's at his sister's wedding..really miss him peeps..

credits to nora..nice pics sweetie..

I AM HOPELESSLY DEVOTED TO YOU..

FOR NOW EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU TOO

SPARE ME ALL THOSE KISSES,WARM HUGS,I NEED THEM

MY LIFE HAS HELD SO MUCH SADNESS

YOU ALWAYS BROUGHT ME TO A HAPPY PLACE

FEELING EXCITEMENT WITH EACH NEW DAY

KNOWING I WOULD SEE UR FACE.

TONITE WEN I LAY DOWN TO SLEEP

I'LL PRAY TO HIM ABOVE

THAT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CARED
AND YOU'LL SOMEHOW FEEL MY LOVE TOWARDS YOU.

*IT'S ALL ABOUT BEING WITH YOU*

LOVE

lalalala

just came back hm...went out with him..really had a great time with him treasure every minute.haha..ate canadian just nw..the pasta really sux..
me n nora started to build up our friendship by talking on the phone at nite..really nice chatting with her..she and her hakim..haha..its true girls really needs guy to confess their feelings and girls relly is unpatient wen it comes to love..haha..i relly understand u nora..i've been in ur shoes..and it reallly is irritating..nvm darling..in general guys love to take things slow..

Age matters??we did bring up tis matter just nw..and wen his 30 i m only 22..tat's wen i want to enjoy my life..he told me i m gonna meet more new people and will be exposed to the outside world..there's alot of thing i need to learn..i agree with him..i am scared of what's our future gonna be..scared... tis future thingy really haunts my reverie..
all i see was my future is with him..i sense tat he really can take good care of me and i m preety sure tat mom's gonna like him...his part of me and i m already part of his life..i seriously serious in this relationship..i love him..ur always on my mind..i feel secure wen ur with me..i m lost in his eyes..

just cast all the past away..cast it to the deep blue sea...memories are with u for the rest of ur life but don't let it stop u frm making a move in ur life..life needs to move on..dont let the past hold u back my dear sweet nabilah..i want the best for u..and i think his the one..

my o's are really near..fear is all i can say..hey..i had a great day todae..total madness..a day full of laughter..full of excitment..there he goes again..hahaha..i love u Hid..!!!

ur addictive shit!!

just woke up...really had fun with him last nite..
the whole day i was with him..haha..we started our day with 2 sets of hotcakes frm macdonald..
den went to some places...
really love him alot..
whole day with him..
really treasure those moments..

i really miss nabilah man..thought of meeting her todae..but still waiting for her call..
exams are really near..n it really haunts me..
i m scared..aargh..

on mondae nite udin,hakim,rahmat,izam,shafiq,fauzi and he came to my place..
it was fun..crazy people makes really crazy jokes tat makes me go nuts..hhaaha
he was really funny..he even manage to make my mum laugh..lol..

to you...i wont leave u for now..just loving u the way u r..really was an enjoyment moment to be with u all dae...i love u..i want more...more of ur love...

woooo..i m tired..

i am really tired todae..iron the curtains..hang them..do my art...change all the bedsheets..really was exhausted..
i really miss him like hell seh..aargh...
yesterday went to nabilah house to print some of my art research..really was fun..really luve her alot..later tat nite pass by my workplace,haha...really miss werking there..and they got a new uniform and it reaally sucks!!haha..sit down and talk with syafiq for a while..alot of things happen..hahaha..he said he wants to see me werking there right after my o levels..we'll see about tat..haha...have not made up my mind..i enjoy werking there but...hmmm..dunno lah...
and my tiredness will continue until i finish painting my room...now waiting for mom's fwen to help me out..aarg...
PEOPLE...I MISS HIM LIKE HELL!!!!!!

purple..

was tired..just finish painting my room..
luckily i wasn't the onli one painting..abg mokthar came to help me out...
but too bad..we did not finish painting coz we're out of purple paint..
it was tired peeps...
he called and we talk on the phone..earlier he calledand we put down the phone coz i cant hear a single thing he said..am i deaf or he talk to soft??i donno..den later tat nite he called again and he sounded so different..i noe there must be something wrong..he sounded bad mood..i saked him and he said his not angry with me..no way am i gonna ask him again coz tat's gonna irritate him..and to be safe i just kept quite and we put down the phone..at first i was confused..confused if i should comfort him or should i just leave him alone...
maybe he need his own space..just wait till he wants to voice out his problem..so for the time being i don want to ask..let him start..if he wants to tell i would listen..
o levels are really near..hari raye is tis saturday..stupid dates..y they have to fall on the same month on the same week..shitto..
i gt a call frm udin..he asked y am i not werking there..all i said was my o's are cuming..and told him maybe after my oo's i'll be coming there..but..well i dunno..i'll just let the time tells..
i miss him..i miss him..i miss him...stupid feelings!!

love love love

just came back frm school...cant fast todae ..stupid menses..
meet him yesterdae at jurong..spend time though just for a while..but really treasure moments wif him..wish we could spend more time..I AM GREEDY FOR YOU!!
after meeting him,he sent me to geylang to meet nabilah,fadhil,tong and his girlfwen..
went to eat at Arnold...it was fun..really enjoy being with them..lots of laughter..den went to search for Nai'l's samping and nabilah's baju kurung..
After tat..tis incident really embarrassed me peeps!!! he suppose to fetch me frm geylang to send me home..he waited fer me at Tanjong katong complex carpark..due to my clumsiness..i opened a car door only to find out it was a wrong car..really felt stupid u noe...passerby laugh at me and it feels sux!!!but..is there any medicine which can cure my clumssiness??i need help..
he send me home..i reach hm at 11.30..
and one more thing..i need medicine to cure my sleeping disorder..i could not sleep last nite..it really was irritating wen u tried to sleep but this beautiful eys of mine just couldnt shut!i hate it and i certainly need help..ok...and to my upcoming o level...i hate u!!

missing u lately..

ok...it's been quite a long time since i last updated my blog...
alot of things happen..
haha
firstly..i love him badly!!!!
secondly..i really want to meet him..i miss him like hell seh..
thirdly...nabilah broke off with wan..and tat's a gd sign for someone who deserves her better
fourthly..EXAMS!!O LEVEL!!is just a round the corner..and i still had a hard time doing my papers without any textbooks with me..
last but not least...i really was addicted to him...his my drug people...

tis really happens when u miss someone..i m mad

i'll give my word...

Connections can happen in unlikely places -- and with unlikely people. Today, in circumstances beyond your control, you may find yourself talking to someone you never would have considered talking to before -- and it could lead to a new type of romance. You possess a magnetism that will only grow in the coming weeks. Take people seriously when they flirt with you, and give them a chance to show you what they can do. There is a real value in giving people the benefit of the doubt.(capricorn daily horoscope)

his horoscope really match wat he siad yesterday nite...
i was damn shocked n was happy actually seeing ur name appear on my handphone screen..
what's more shocking is wen u tell me hw u felt ..i thought on that dae u said it all and wouldn't want me in ur life again..i took it seriously n tried to get over with it..but i cant.. and u said tat ur angry with me..dissapointed with me as i m too blind to see wat's happening between the both of us..despite u critisizing me and humiliate me u want me to realize wat's underneath all those words..and it hurts me more wen u said there is three other girls u r contacting but yet u choose me over them..y??u made me feel guilty..

now i know the reason behind all the hatred u had on me..u got no trust on me anymore and i wont blame u for that..it's all my fault..i m too blind just like u said..
and now..if u r willing to give me a second chance i m willling to change for u..i really want ur love badly cause i m deeply in love with u..

ur words saying how u felt towards me really makes me want to hold u in my arms tighter..
it's not revealing ur weakness by telling hw u felt..it is not stupid either..
wat u say really reflect hw bad am i to u..i am guilty..and i am really sorie..
i need those second chance badly.. i want to show u and let u noe how much i care about u..
gosh...i love u alot...

There goes my Walking ATM

ok peeps..just came back frm study corner(under my block..haha)..i did my essay qns..really was difficult and i realized there's so many things i need to catch up bebs...got to pull up my socks!!
todae was really a boring dissapointed day i should say..haha..firstly,i was suppose to go out with my mom to johor to buy our hari raya stuff there..den this mother tongue resit paper really ruins it all..i was suppose to come home at 1 but i came home at 4 due to that stupid fucking 1hour 30 mins paper..it was hard seh..i told my mum earlier if she would wait fer me then we go johor together but she say it's too late..thought of spending her money buying clothes shoes..to summarise it all she'll be my Atm walking machine for the day..i guess due to my bad plan in using her money,it was cancelled...aargh!!nvm..there's always a next time(i guess)if onli she would spend her money on me again..it's been a long time since the last outing i had with my mom...too bad..they went leaving me behind breaking my fast alone with my bibik..i guess they had a sumptious meal outhere while i had eggs..rice and also fish cracker for my dinner..aww...
secondly,i am wondering how am i gonna turn up tis monday to take my pay..hw am i gonna face him really keeps lingering in my mind..I duNNo!!
just nw in the afternoon had a great laugh with my girlfriend..Nabilah..we really had a great sense of humour u noe..staying wth her all the day can drive me to nuts..if onli my stomach could talk it would say"hey stop laughing i'm hurt"haha..
i really miss sarpino..miss washing the dishes,eating the sweet pineapples like a thief haha..n mostly the jokes and laughter made by the people there..but wat to do..afifah got to do wat she have to do..
my sleepy eyes has send signal to my brain..need to log out..

boredom!!

gosh todae was damn fucking bored!
firstly..i did not came to school..really am tired(but i was not working yesterdae)..
maybe my mind is too tired to take all the naggings frm the teachers in school..haha
secondly,i have no mood man..maybe because of wat happen last nite..his word hit me peeps..
k lah
i want to study

"ur an ordinary type of girl"

ok...yesterday was sux!
i msg him in the afternoon apologised about what we had quarelled last nite..but it turn out worse!
he claimed that i am not his type of girl..he keep repeating that word..and what makes me really mad was wen he said tat he thinks tat i m lying to him for all this while and has not be sincere towards him..he also claimed tat i could not be trusted and would never understand him..u noe how hurt it is!!
i asked him what have i done wrong..he told me he does not the way i talk and behave during work(i really got no idea what i did peeps!)if he were to say i am flirting with other guys..then he must be blind coz to me that there is someone who flirts there..,maybe he is mad with me wen i went out wif the guys for riding..that was SERIOUSLY an unplanned outing...and tat was like my first time going out with them..never crossed my mind tat i want to flirt with them..and the word is NEVER!..i guess he is mad with me regarding tat..

later that nite he msg me and apologised to me..he said his having his own problem..and he claimed ythe word "maybe next time.."that 3 words really made me wonder..didn't he say i m not his type of girl??and what's with the next time??i did told him tat hw deeply in love i m with him...but wen this happen it hurt me badly..
maybe we r not meant to be together..

hey..i love you deeply..and ur words really hit me...it really hurts..
hope u find someone which is suitable and compatible with u..
someone who really can understand u..
wish u luck on that...

it reflect us

MY MATCHING HOROSCOPE..AQUARIES AND CAPRICORN

This aspect signifies that you just plainly love each other. The attraction is so strong between you that even though you may be incompatible by other standards, you still feel like being with your partner because of that love you feel for them. It's not that they won't occasionally drive you nuts - they will. It's just that the bottom line is that there is real love between you and there is no stronger emotion in the universe.By being together you can create beauty and form as well as appreciate art and music. Your home can easily be filled with "treasures" that reflect the talents you have. But as always with Venus, be careful of overindulging in the good things of life so they do not become a noose around your neck instead of an object of desire. Remember, the more things you have, the more trouble you are likely to have. You will not mind showing off what you have accrued together, but vanity can become an undesired side effect of this aspect if it is not kept in check.Avoid hiding any difficulties in your relationship and bring them out in the open so they can be resolved or at least recognized in order to avoid major problems down the road. You may also be drawn to speculative ventures with this aspect, so just remember to be practical in your expenditures.With this configuration, no matter what difficulties come along to challenge you, you will always feel a need and desire to make peace, reconcile and create harmony and cooperation in your relationship. This aspect offers a great stability that will keep you from turning against each other, unless the obstacles become totally overwhelming.A great deal of time and effort can be put into social activities and if you are involved in creative ventures together, then this aspect adds support and form to your ideas

Thanks and Goodbye

u said it all...
whatelse do i need to do..
i tried but things didnt seem to be right...

u gave me high hopes in being with u..
i thought my dreams would come true..
but as i say..dreams only exist in fairytales..
and it only will stay as a dream..a dream that
will snap out once u wake up..

i am an ordinary typical girl..boring..lame..liar
that's what u said..
u told me to go away frm ur life..
just because i went out with my colleague tat nite..

have u ever spare a thought for me?
have u ever wonder hw worried i felt wen u did not answer my calls?
do u noe how stupid i was looking at my phone every minute just to see ur name appear..
now tis is all i get..
what wrong have i done..
i m so in love with u..
i just don't get it..y must u end all this just because of tat nite?

have i ever mistrust u?
have i ever flirt with other guys?
i hate wen reality strikes

i felt tat i am nt important in ur life
i didn't xpect u to b with me 24/7
i just dun feel it ..
y..

thanks..thanks for everything..advices..and also words that really encourage me to make it through life...
i appreciate it..

i'll go away frm ur life..
thanks once again...

i m sorry..

things really get worse between me and him

really hope tat he'll get over with it..really am worried about wats gonna happen next...
it all happen wen i did not turn up for my bloody prelims..
he called me in the morning and asked where am i..
i told him i was at home and did not turn up for my prelim..
he sounded dissapointed....

YESTERDAY..i msg him and asked if he's mad with me regarding the prelim thingy..
he said he was..and this is wat he reply back:

"tat's not the point.ure real prob and the only prob

tat u r facing is ur o level.tat's it clear enough...no others

..paham!"

"no im sorry for u..im disspointed with u...never do the mistakes

i've made..n if u go neglecting ur studies,don't talk to me about

future stuff..ure nobody w/o education..i m serious..PAHAM TAK!"

this msg really hit me people!!

"u no need to work tis sunday..n i dont wanna hear u saying

ure bored at home.No more hanging out at simei 2..if i c

u at simei u can forget about talking to me..NO BUTS"

GOSH..I FEEL DAMN BAD MAN..i hope he really accept my apology..i noe i dissapoint him..aaarghh if i noe tis would happen i would have woke up tat morning and sit fer my paper man..i m sorry..really sorry...now i noe the reason y u did not answer my calls n reply my msges,i'll promise tat i'll follow anything u say beb..didnt mean to disspoint u..serious..

i m just curious why u react tis way...haiz..i m wondering..

aarrgg ..9.54pm